Depression

Hi reader!

and be ware of this outburst of deep disturbing thoughts.

I have never actually talked about this. I haven't really wanted to admit that I have a depression and first time ever I'm thinking about getting help.

I can't deal with my thoughts. I feel really lonely and same time I don't want to see anyone. The last four days I have been in my own hell. I have just been alone in my apartment and just watched tv and laid there. I had too much time to hear my thoughts but I have not let my self cry all the time. I have watched "feel good" movies like Love, Simon and other like that.

But don't get me wrong. I'm not suicidal. I could never do that to people close to me.

I just need someone to talk to. Someone who doesn't know me.

Yours truly,

Cal Waves