Lonely

"My life is like being in the ocean. 

Waves are trying to pull me under,

but I'm just strong enough to swim back up.

If there isn't a storm, tehn I'm just going

with the calm flow to open sea and

forgetting where I was supposed to go.

(which is back to the steady land)"

That's something I wrote awhile back. It Felt so real, like I finally understand my own head. I think I have hard time with people, because I'm so used to be alone. 

Lately I have Felt so lonely. I have no one to talk to. No one wants to listen. Some days I feel like everyone is so busy with their lifes that no one has time for me. That might sound so selfish, but if you have a hard time or tough thought, shouldn't you have someone you can reach out to? 

This is why I would love to have relationship, not something serious but just someone to keep me Company on lonely nights. 

Why is that so hard to get?

That all lovelies,
Cal Waves